It was almost two years since I start struggling with growing a business without having any other income, while having debts to pay (I made them taking courses, but they were still debts). I loved my daily meditation practice all this time, it was giving me great insights into how our body functions, and all the “gates” that has to open allowing our spiritual evolution. Sometimes I had meditations up to 5 hours long, without realising when the time flies.
That day I became curious where my financial struggle comes from, and I entered in a meditation with this question in mind. It was not my usual approach to meditation, but thought it worth a try. After reaching a very deep meditation state, being aware all the time, I entered into a visualisation .. founding myself “walking” in the dark. At some point, I noticed “someone” in the distance looking … and waiting for me. When I’ve got closer, the “person” opened the hands and welcomed me with a big hug: “Welcome back!!!”, I clearly heard like someone whispered in my ears.
Those words and hug were so powerful that I felt a current of energy inundating my physical body, like I was reunited with “something”, and I start crying… deeply touched! I suddenly woke up, tears coming down my eyes like I was really crying. A deep and profound emotional state came out of that vision, with a true feeling of being “Home”. I stayed with it for a while, trying to understand the message of my vision.
For each of us, such a vision could have a different meaning, but for me it was a deep connection with my own soul (that “person”) which left me with the message: “I need to connect more with people… if I want my situation to improve”!!!
I was in WOW, why I didn’t thing of that before?! I was looking for an answer to my question, and it came out in a very unexpected way! It’s true that I’ve isolated myself even more since I lost my job (Jan. 2012): partly because I am an introvert (never get annoyed of being by myself), partly because I wanted to hide my lack of money during that period of time, and partly … because I thought you need money to meet other people (go to networking events, etc.). It happened many times to resist to invite people (not even for a coffee), because I was not sure if I’ll have money to pay for it when we meet. No wonder why the business didn’t grow in such conditions! 🙂
The message I’ve got from that powerful meditation connected me also with some knowledge acquired earlier. There are different stages of evolution: in our childhood we are depending of others (to help us learn how to “navigate” this world), we claim our independence in teenage and adult years, but we might not realise there is another stage: interdependence. At least I didn’t realise! 🙂 While we can still be independent in the way we function, through interdependence we can achieve much more … together! You cannot really achieve your goals by isolating yourself in a world where so many things are correlated!
With that lesson learned now deep down in my bones, I start reaching out to people more often … and soon the situation start getting better. And I even enjoy my new way of functioning in this world. 🙂
If you didn’t try meditation yet, you might want to give it a try. It’s wonderful when you can learn lessons tighten to where you are, and what you need to know in that moment! Developing a meditation practice needs patience, but it increases your patience if you stay with it … plus many other benefits.
Committed to learn more, and deepening my understanding of our role on Earth. What about you? 🙂